Blog Post Inspiration:
“Everyone has a covering. Some cover you with an umbrella while others cover you with a roof. The umbrella covering is controlling and manipulative; it only covers you as long as you move at their will and in their direction! The roof allows you the freedom to grow, develop, and be your authentic self, mess up, or even break down without fear of being exposed!”
– Keionna Singleton (Instagram: @keionnadavon)
Can I be transparent, Destined For Greater Family?
2020 was a rollercoaster for me emotionally! When I look at the quote above it reminds me of my childhood, past relationships, friendships, jobs (not all of them but a good handful of them) etc. There was always that somebody with the umbrella in my life. From the surface it seemed safe under their covering but eventually they would take it away. I would be left feeling stuck, blindsided and bitter. I believe I desperately craved, majority of my life to find somewhere I could call “Home” and I looked for that home in relationships, friendships, living with other people because I felt rejected, unsupported and unprotected from my blood family.
At one point this year I was faced with the decision to :
Continue to create unhealthy bonds, continue being depressed and bitter. Continue to ignore the call on my life and keep experiencing people snatching their umbrella from over my head…
Allow my father in heaven Jesus Christ to create a roof. A permanent covering over my head and life without worrying about if he will change his mind because he promised me in his word that he would never leave me nor forsake me (Deuteronomy 31:6 NIV). In addition to allowing my husband to cover me and a few close friends that love and support the journey I’m on .
Your assumption was correct, I picked Option #2 ! Trust me, I would not be talking to you today if I had not made a decision in 2020 to let my father provide a roof for me. Trusting and having faith in my heavenly father is what got me where I am today. I also had God’s grace and mercy. I’m going to keep it real with you, even though I thought at one point in my life God left me because of how alone I felt, I have come to realize my father never left me!
Our father desires nothing but the best for us and wants us to use our experiences and pain as a testimony to all his children.Destined For Greater, was originally birthed from God personally saving my life when I wanted to take my own life. My father reached all the way at the bottom of the barrel to lift me up, even after I pushed him away, rejected his love and became ashamed of him. My father still chose me even when I didn’t choose him!
I want my readers to know you have options! You’re never as stuck as you think you are! You can allow God to use what you’re hiding from to bring his kingdom glory or you can remain in a dysfunctional state.
I am thankful today God gives us the power of choice! My favorite parable is the Parable of the Good Samaritan (Check out Luke 10:25-37). I learned as I got older that I do not have to be like the people that held umbrellas over my head, I can choose to be a roof for the people I cross paths with in my life even if it’s just for a season with God’s help.
I thank you Jesus for giving me insight to give my readers nourishment for their mind, body and soul. Rest kings and queens of the most high, soaking in the fact that God’s got us!
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